"BUDHOOS" Vs "BUJIIS"
I decided to write this blog after reading the blog of one of the IITans from my locality.I haven't read him completely,not even a single paragraph with concentration.Suddenly, I felt to do this. I don't know why....but i felt so.....and now i am here before my computer typing out something that comes to me.
What you feel when people around you vest heaps of victories and you stand out as a "bumptious discordant idiot"(sorry, this is a term stolen from an essay of G.B.Shaw "How i became a public speaker")?Do we 'budhoos' feel a sort of servitude?I think most of us feel it......
In fact i too had felt it often. But when I reflect on myself, i feel that i am a sort of restless person. I have a mind that always pines to do something different. Even i feel embarrassed over the fact that I crave to become a writer, though not so famous, a preferable one. But in reality,I have never made even a single striking piece, the so-called 'standard' one.No matter....... I am, what i am.Mom gets completely out of her wits when she hears some of my crazy plans and priorities. I don't know whether there remain a bead of confidence in me within her. What to do???
She is quite worried about that silly, stupid girl who had scored less marks in maths and science,who had managed an 'alright' percentage in her 10th std exam & a 'distinction-1' in her 12th std while her peers triumph in these, cross the hurdles of various entrance examinations with flying colours. I puzzle what her BP would have been when she had heard my cousin's score in 12th board exams!!!!After all,I can never blame her.She is my mom and it's my fault that i can't gratify her..
However i trust in me.None is born with a vacant brain and a vacuous heart. Go and see yourself in the mirror -there is a star in your eye, a twinkling star. When you are in a trouble it winks at you and says " hey don't worry yaar........ take it easy".
Don't adjudge that vitality is valid only if there is a stockpile of trophies and medals in your showcase.Just think, bagging a lot of prizes but can only keep your mind barred to others;such a person remain melancholic wherever he goes. Who is luckier-a person with ranks or one with a true friend?I thinh the latter.But don't think that life is something just to be celebrated.Enjoy the ecstacy of existence after etching it with the ethos of hard work.My dad had never scolded me for scoring less marks in maths and science.He had seen me rupturing myself with them till late at nights.However in a way, these low scores had themselves spurred me to take English Literature in my college which is the most fortunate thing i had ever done in my 20 years' living!!!!
This sole petite life is not something to be squandered in boggling what others are thinking of us.Let them think about us and waste their time. Nevertheless,we must contemplate ourselves.Are our thoughts appealing to us? Are we right, true to our conscience? I f we are we have won. Never let others subjugate us. Whatever, wherever we are, just take a firm decision to snatch our ultimate goals. Also try the best to make our loved ones happy......gains are gayer when they bag applauds.
"TO BE LIKE SUN
FIRST BURN LIKE IT."
What you feel when people around you vest heaps of victories and you stand out as a "bumptious discordant idiot"(sorry, this is a term stolen from an essay of G.B.Shaw "How i became a public speaker")?Do we 'budhoos' feel a sort of servitude?I think most of us feel it......
In fact i too had felt it often. But when I reflect on myself, i feel that i am a sort of restless person. I have a mind that always pines to do something different. Even i feel embarrassed over the fact that I crave to become a writer, though not so famous, a preferable one. But in reality,I have never made even a single striking piece, the so-called 'standard' one.No matter....... I am, what i am.Mom gets completely out of her wits when she hears some of my crazy plans and priorities. I don't know whether there remain a bead of confidence in me within her. What to do???
She is quite worried about that silly, stupid girl who had scored less marks in maths and science,who had managed an 'alright' percentage in her 10th std exam & a 'distinction-1' in her 12th std while her peers triumph in these, cross the hurdles of various entrance examinations with flying colours. I puzzle what her BP would have been when she had heard my cousin's score in 12th board exams!!!!After all,I can never blame her.She is my mom and it's my fault that i can't gratify her..
However i trust in me.None is born with a vacant brain and a vacuous heart. Go and see yourself in the mirror -there is a star in your eye, a twinkling star. When you are in a trouble it winks at you and says " hey don't worry yaar........ take it easy".
Don't adjudge that vitality is valid only if there is a stockpile of trophies and medals in your showcase.Just think, bagging a lot of prizes but can only keep your mind barred to others;such a person remain melancholic wherever he goes. Who is luckier-a person with ranks or one with a true friend?I thinh the latter.But don't think that life is something just to be celebrated.Enjoy the ecstacy of existence after etching it with the ethos of hard work.My dad had never scolded me for scoring less marks in maths and science.He had seen me rupturing myself with them till late at nights.However in a way, these low scores had themselves spurred me to take English Literature in my college which is the most fortunate thing i had ever done in my 20 years' living!!!!
This sole petite life is not something to be squandered in boggling what others are thinking of us.Let them think about us and waste their time. Nevertheless,we must contemplate ourselves.Are our thoughts appealing to us? Are we right, true to our conscience? I f we are we have won. Never let others subjugate us. Whatever, wherever we are, just take a firm decision to snatch our ultimate goals. Also try the best to make our loved ones happy......gains are gayer when they bag applauds.
"TO BE LIKE SUN
FIRST BURN LIKE IT."
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